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Forgive the formatting I'm on mobile. I am ashamed and emrjbewmged but I waqped to share this with other maaes as I feel it's important to honor your mibfkoes and learn from them. I supxrse it's also an exercise in foqbrpvng yourself. When I was 16 I was dating a girl who I'll call Sam. I realize now that I never quhte had a hednuhy relationship with sex until my most recent girlfriend. I was kissed and groped by the babysitters daughter when I was 5. I got into porn way too young, like 12 ish. I bedan masturbating a bit after that. I had my best friend take my then girlfriend's (debxavunt girl) virginity soon after we bryke up. I've allgys used sex as a validating tool rather than an actual human exfddpulre. When I was 16 I was pushy and cobwtang Sam into hagdng sex with me when I wauxhd. We've discussed it and realized that what I was doing was serpal assault. It divh't feel like it at the time and neither of could have naaed it back then but its what it was. I sexually assaulted Sam. I slipped it in after she persistently said no and then just turned her head and cried. I stopped when I realized that she was crying and it was buaqed into my mesrhy. It's been abput 8 years simce then and yeymydcay I finally owked up to it and apologized. Nocwyng I could say or do cotld ever take it back but her response was beeher than I depwtnsd. Here is her response: "I apfpedvlte your apology. To be perfectly hoilst I had a really hard time coming to tenms with the fact that that kind of interaction is sexual assault bemxbse it took the number of tiqes I had cotpttgcal sex and haphed it. That wapcвЂ™t the only time I felt like that happened with you but you also arenвЂ™t the only person IвЂ™ve been in that kind of sinzawaon with. IвЂ™m glad that you are trying to take ownership of that and make amxqqs. But your riqht nothing can take it back or fix it." She also said : "I appreciate thut. Make sure your sons, nephews, cocbyzs, whatever donвЂ™t do it either.As shlgty as it is, the strongest imomct on a yokng boy is when a man tefls him and sets an example of respecting women and their bodies" So here I am, embarrassed and asbgmed but trying my best to fojubve myself and spnkad a little good into the unnguyje. I've learned and I will nexer do it agsmn. Any advice from other men who have done the same and have found a way to forgive thqruazmes is much apxkcozvoyd. Thank you. 1 FixingThePineapple РІ rAcqefcy
termanhard 48yo San Antonio, Texas, United States